Well, hello there

Hello out there in blog world, I'm new to this idea of blogging. At least, I haven't blogged since high school. I have recently decided that I want to close down my rarely used myspace site but did not want to lose the four years worth of creative writing that I had poured into it. Now I begin the seemingly monumental task of moving those posts to this blog. I will probably realize that several of my high school thoughts are extremely embarrassing and need to be permanently done away with, but let's see what happens, shall we?

First off, I guess I should introduce myself. I'm Megan. The name of my blog is in reference to my career choice as a teacher, the camo in reference to my husband and our family's adventure in the world of the National Guard for now and active duty Army later. Not to mention my own active involvement in the FRG and "the world of the army wife." It is a badge I wear proudly as every day I have the opportunity to count myself among the amazing group of women who stand behind our troops. Lullabyes (yes, I know it's spelled wrong) is a tribute to my beautiful little girl, who is the light of my life each and every day.

Meet the Fam: Jason is the hubster, Audree is the munchkin, and that's me with some really big hair! 

Right now, my life focuses on completing my Bachelors degree and getting a job out in the real world. I only have about month left until graduation and I am absolutely terrified. I'll leave it at that for now. 

I'm a sarcastic, passionate, and a little bit crazy girl just trying to navigate this life one day at a time. 

Here is my first installment from my old blog as promised, when this was written I was about 6 months pregnant and my husband had just left for his first deployment. My daughter was born while he was away, we were lucky and the deployment was shortened from the original year and my husband met our daughter when she was about 3 months old. 

Don't take advice from people that don't have to live with the results

but in the end, the most important thing 

to accept is that no matter how alone you 

feel, how painful it may be, with the help of 

those around you, you'll get through this too.

++ Scrubs <3

I know it's hard for you to express your feelings, but I want you to try. Make me a mix tape, write me a letter...something, anything to tell me you are feeling something too. I can't be the only one in turmoil.

In truth I'm scared, scared you will never meet your baby girl, scared that this will change you, scared it will change me. Scared of waiting. Just scared.

The only thing that gets me through the day is knowing that I'm one day, one hour, one minute closer to you.

It's an amazing feeling to feel you move during the day. I wonder about you every day. What will you look like, will you be a good person, will you love music as much as I do, will you have your father's sense of humor. I can't wait to meet you and watch you grow. I love you so much already.

When you miss someone, you know you are one of the lucky ones because you have someone worth missing

I've never been afraid to chase my dreams. Now I feel like I'm holding myself back for you. I have never stood in your way, why would you stand in mine.

I believe history should be taught from a bottom- up perspective. I have little interest in what the generals or presidents thought. Tell me about the enlisted guys, what they saw and felt. The affect on every day people. That's what makes history so intriguing.

I just wanna hear your voice

and look in to your eyes

touch your face

and smell your skin

and taste your kiss

I just want you.

Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away;
and all the things I want to say can find no voice.
Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart. 

If something bad happens to us someday,
it’ll never change what we have now, what we’ve always had.
Because you were right.
Love is real and we have to do everything to keep it alive.
Wherever life takes us I want it to be with you, forever or until tomorrow.
-Topanga ; boy meets world

I like people who have a sense of individuality.
I love expression and anything awkward andimperfect, because that's natural and that's real.

You don’t just automatically love someone. You have to slowly learn to trust, and then you start believing in them. You want to be with them more to the point where you’re jealous of anyone who tries to be with that person. Then it gets you mad, but you get past it. You can’t bejealous anymore. You can’t because you have this undying confidence that this person willnever leave you, they will never betray you, and that they would never pick someone else over you, that you’re irreplaceable. That’s when the confidence hits you, that you really do love each other and it’s unbreakable

We live for the people we like

and die for the people we love.

All good things were

 created through boredom.

We always thought we'd look back on our
tears and laugh, but we never thought we'd
look back on our laughter and cry

sometimes you just feel
everything and nothing at once
sometimes you'll find yourself smiling
while missing something at the same time
at times you can absolutely love a person,
all the while wanting to hate them
life comes without guarantees
except that smiling will brighten your face,
laughing will enhance your eyes,
and falling in love will change your life

Sleep is a symptom of caffeine deprivation.
I want you to be the kind of guy who will take me to concertsand let me gawk over hot singers, but know I still love you bestThat night we talked
we talked about life,
 about our times together.
 Maybe we aren’t the same two kids we were, 
but some things never change.
Some things last, and even though
 I didn’t know what was going to happen to us 
or where we were going, I just knew I couldn’t let you out of my life.

End discrimination. Hate everybody.

Change is a funny thing.
We are never quite sure
what we are becoming, or why.
Then, one day we look at ourselves
and wonder who we are
and how we got there.
And she screams in her pillow for a better tomorrow.
She hates it, but she takes it; watch out for that girl,
one day she may change the world.
she's a mess of gorgeous chaos,and you can see it in her eyes
Sometimes you just need to cry and be sad.
you need to break down and be torn apart.
You need to learn how to pick yourself up
and put yourself back together.
Sometimes, the only way to be happy
is to give into sadness first.
Cause without sadness,
there's no happiness,
you would never learn to smile
all i can picture is the color of your eyes and the way you make me smile
the more it takes to make you fall,
the harder it is for you to get back up
It is ridiculous claiming that video games influence children.
For instance, if Pac-man affected kids born in the eighties,
we should by now have a bunch of teenagers who run around in darkened rooms
and eat pills while listening to monotonous electronic music.

A best friend isn't someone who's just always there for you,
it's someone who understands you a bit more than you
understand yourself.
The words that escape a friend's mouth are
"I'll be there when you say you need me" the words that are unheard from a true friend's heart are 
"I'll be there... whether you say you need me or not."